So, what’s new?
It’s been a while since I blogged. It’s been three weeks and before that it was nearly two months.
I kept finding myself wanting to go onto social media and apologise for my absence. But why apologise? I make no promises to blog a specific number of times in any given week or month. And really, who would I be apologising to? Myself I suppose. The guilt is only because although blogging is something I enjoy, it also is a bit like work. Although it’s enjoyable, it’s time consuming and I haven’t had too much time to spare recently.
It’s not like I haven’t been doing anything while I’ve been “away”.
Far from it. I’ve been busy and I’ve been quite stressed. But it’s good stress. I’ve had three major life events all happening at once for the past four months and I haven’t been able to speak about any of them. Until now.
Hopefully this will explain why my blog has been so quiet recently.
I’ve had to keep such big things to myself that the little things have felt insignificant. Not worthy enough of a post. And if I couldn’t talk about some of the most important and life-changing things in my life, what was the point?
The first thing is: we’ve bought a house. Not just any house, the most beautiful, perfect Edwardian house. Here comes the other part: it’s in Northamptonshire. That’s right, we’re relocating from Brighton.
To begin with, I was really sad at the thought of leaving Brighton behind. I’ve lived here for nine, fun, lovely years and I’ve made some great friends along the way. But it’s time to move on to another chapter in our lives. Instead of focusing on what I’ll miss, I’ve started focusing on the things I’ll be gaining instead.
In Northamptonshire, we’ll be close to my family and some of my best friends. My parents will be a 20 minute drive away and my brother 10 minutes away. No more weekend trips, trying to cram in seeing as many people as possible, feeling bad for those I’ve missed out and exhausting myself (and revving up my migraines) in the process. I’m so looking forward to being able to meet up with a friend for coffee or invite people over for dinner.
And once we started looking at the prices of houses in the Midlands, it became an easier decision. We can afford a gorgeous house – and our outgoings will be slashed too. We’ve been slowly getting priced out of Brighton and we came to accept that we’d never be able to buy here.
It’s going to be a big shock to the system, I’m sure. We’ve been well and truly spoiled by living in one of the best cities in the world and having so many amazing things on our doorstep. But Northamptonshire offers us everything we now want and need – in this next chapter – and more.
It’s been a long, stressful process and I still don’t know exactly when the move will happen but it’s currently looking like mid-late June.
The move also means I’m saying goodbye to my job: a job I really, really love. It’s the only job I’ve had that I’ve never dreaded going into, even for one day. But more than the job is the brilliant people I’ll be leaving behind, that I hope I can stay in touch with. Everything with the house – and so my job – was up in the air for a long time, which again was very stressful, but I know this decision is for the best. It’s scary, but it means I’m going to take this opportunity to go properly self employed and try freelancing. I’m lucky in that I’ve got so much to offer in terms of writing and content production, editing, proofing and experience in SEO and social media – and that I can apply those to print magazines and websites and blogs – so I feel like while one door is closing another is opening. The idea of it is scary, exciting and daunting and I’m under no illusions that it’ll be easy. I don’t even know if it’ll work out at all. But if I were still in Brighton I would never take the plunge so I feel like I need to take this chance I’ve been given and give it a shot.
In theory, it also means I’ll be able to dedicate a bit more time to my blog too (until the baby arrives, that is!). It’s a change but an exciting one.
The third major life event, that is happening at the same time as relocating across the country and quitting my job, is that we’re having a baby!
I could not be more excited about this.
But I’m also overwhelmed, worried, anxious, confused… all normal feelings, I’m sure. It couldn’t have happened at a more crazy time, but it also tells me that it’s meant to be.
In Brighton we’d have always felt like we couldn’t afford to start a family, but now I feel like we’ll be ready. Hopefully we’ll have the money, space and support network for us to bring up our son or daughter in the way we’d like to.
This is another reason why having family – my mum in particular! – close by, is so important to me. And being close to family means our child can grow up with their cousins and my friends’ children too.
So here’s to big change. All at once. My life is changing in so many crazy ways right now, it’s definitely scary but it’s so exciting too. Fancy coming along for the ride?!